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I'm not going to be using this journal so much anymore.
I'm going to be keeping it because I have a lot of memories in it,
I also have friends on LJ that I want to keep in touch with still.
So its going to be here, but I have a new journal,
You can write me a comment on this journal or on my other journal,
and I'll get in touch with you,
But this new journal is going to be my most active from this point on.
http://Cynicalkitty.vox.com
The reason I didn't post this before was because I was weary of some people that I didn't get along with and I didn't want them to find this journal. I wanted it just kind of for me.
But now im at the point where I just dont give a fuck lol.
So if you want, check it out, let me know what you think.
If you decide to get one there too, then friend me!
"I love you all, I love you more than life itself,
But your all fucking mad" - Ozzy
Hope to hear from you guys sometime =).
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[24 Oct 2007|11:21am] |
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I guess its time for an update, god its been awhile since I last used this.
A lot has gone on. Drama, fun stuff, life.
Dan's sister pretty much hates me for no reason.
Im just ignoring it. She has no idea that I know.
But I don't even care. Im done with that drama,
if people want to hate me for no reason, let them.
Life is too short to worry about that shit.
I have a test almost every class so I've been studying like a maniac.
Unfortunately my last test came out pretty bad I got a 50
but I expected as much.
Shes going to drop the lowest quiz grade though, and thats the lowest one I have so its ok.
Dan and I are doing great at least something in my life is still stable.
We're going to Boston on Saturday morning. I can't wait.
I'm so excited. I've been getting back into my photography lately.
I kind of miss it. I love to take pictures I wish I could make it a career. But I doubt it would ever fly off anywhere.
We did some Pumpkin carving at the nursing home yesterday, it was fun and exhausting, Dan got so frustrated I had to help him lol.
Poor babes.
Im so glad not to be in college right now. Its such a relief.
No panic or stress. Just calm. That feels good.
I've been having trouble sleeping lately though at night, during the day I'll take a nap, or I'll just lie on my bed and end up sleeping.
Dans really been taking care of me lately,
About 2 weeks ago I had this huge headache, that no matter how many excedrin I took it would not go away.
I was in some serious pain, I was crying it just hurt so much.
So he bought me an ice pack from CVS and some Mineral ice to rub on my head =)...
Yesterday he got me some Tylenol PM because Im having trouble sleeping. ^_^.
I went to the doctors last Friday and told her about it, she thinks I have migraine headaches, since its on one side of my head, but we dont know the cause of it, she asked if I smoke or if I have any stress in my life right now, I have neither.
So she gave me a perscription for Axert and a $25 off card.
She said to take it as soon as I feel it and the migraine should go away, if it keeps happening she said that we're going to have to find a medicine that prevents the headaches from happening,
Because they've been happening almost every week now for 2 months.
Its agony when it happens, I cant do anything because my head throbs whenever I move. I'll do anything to make it go away.
There has been this girl Carol thats been hanging around with Cory and Dan lately.
grrr... shes getting me so pissed off, shes all happy and bouncy around him. Shes a nice girl but ...BACK OFF.
She put a blood pressure cuff on his wrist Monday,
I wanted to twist off all her fingers.. yeah I was there.
Its not that I dont trust Dan, I dont trust her.
It takes 2 to tango but I still worry, again not so much about him,
but her.
As long as im around her im going to watch her like a hawk.
Shes a geeky, cute, bouncy little girl, and I dont trust her! grawr!
>=P
I've been using my DS a lot more lately, Im addicted to this game called Puzzle Quest.
Its like Bejeweled with a plot and its really difficult, you level up, get weapons etc.
I cant stop playing, I stopped playing Zelda momentarily because im stuck on a part I cant get passed but I'll get back to it eventually.
Thats about it for now I guess.
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[15 Oct 2007|11:02pm] |
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I just got out of class.. well about a half hour ago.
Im still wearing my scrubs,
Didn't really do anything messy so no problem.
We fed the elderly today, I had this one woman named Martha,
she can only eat soft foods.. she was so sweet though. =)
I really liked her. Took a quiz, Got a 76.
I'm doing so well in this class!
My lowest grade so far is the 76.
Im eating a lollipop, and my tongue is blue now.
I think I should brush my teeth before I go to bed,
im trying to take better care of my teeth,
Dan keeps scaring me to death, the way he talks about his.
Things are a little complicated between his sister and I right now and whats worse I don't know why.
Dan thinks its because shes jealous of the attention hes giving me and not her... gee... HE IS MY BOYFRIEND!!
But Dan stuck up for me, he was the one who told me about it, and that makes me happy, because I know hes being honest with me.
He could have just as easily hidden this from me, but she is the one who told him that shes annoyed with me being there..
So yeah im a little aggravated with her right now, but I don't want to start a fight about it, I hate the fact that shes kind of talking behind my back about me, but im done with drama.
No more fighting for me, ever again, unless its self defense.
Now whenever I have issues with anyone I just ..go somewhere else.
Drive somewhere, go to another part of the room, don't listen.
It's just not worth it.
Im going to go to bed soon, Im just watching a bit of tv, feed my fish then try to sleep.
I feel so much better, the past few days have been kind of hell,
I've been having the most intense headaches, really heavy period,
I think the headaches are from the period..
but I'll just have to wait till next week, I've been having so many lately, I can't even..keep track anymore =[..
I have a doctors appointment soon though, so we'll see.
I need money for gas and the money for Boston, to give to Frau.
Just gotta remember!
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[12 Oct 2007|08:57pm] |
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I just watched this on Japanprobe.com, this chimpanzee is a genius.
This is a segment split into 3 parts, about a chimpanzee named Pan-Kun,
who travels with a dog companion to search for a picture frame for his master.
lol its not cake walk either, he runs into a lot of trouble along the way.
It's so adorable and it really reminds you just how smart animals can really be.
It's from a Japanese tv show so you won't be able to understand a word they say,
but you really don't need to, it's pretty much self-explanatory.
Oh and there are a whole bunch of tears at the end because I guess this is more than one segment of a series but this is the last time he'll actually be apart of the outside world. He'll still be on tv though.
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Did I mention I fucking hate having my period.
I absolutely HATE IT.
But its the only thing that will allow me to have babies.
So I will endure it.
That was the most messed up quote ever.
I feel so weird and hormonal.
I woke up with a throbbing headache this morning.
That made my head quake 385398638983 decibals if I moved.
Here is a note for anyone who may have a headache like this.
Ice works WONDERS.
Heat DOES NOT.
I've experimented a lot with this, and my results are conclusive!
My hormones are going 5 million miles a second.
My emotions are through the roof at the moment.
Right now I just feel tired and just..crazy.
Ok I think im going to go rest now.
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[11 Oct 2007|10:05am] |
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Ok there are somethings im going to write in this entry that a guy will NEVER understand. So if there are any guys reading.
Bare with me ok?
So yesterday, was a very fun and irritating day.
It started by me going with Dan to his German class, same teacher I had last year so it was all good and she loves visitors.
It was her birthday so we decided to throw her a surprise party =).
She was definetely surprised! It was a lot of fun we had cake, potatoe salad, popcorn the works.
We watched some German movie.
But I ended up playing Zelda: Phantom hourglass the entire time
because the movie kind of blowed.
Not to mention that game kicks ass by the way.
I felt a headache coming on so I took an excedrin.
By the end of the movie I started really feeling like shit.
my stomach really just ..started feeling bloated and gross..
and then the whole class which consisted of now ..6 people.
Started talking about the berlin wall, and its like everything they were saying just irritated and bored the shit out of me.
Normally I would be attentively listening or just pretending to,
but yesterday I just couldn't stand it.
So I had to get out of there, I went to the bathroom, pee, wipe.
Guess what it is? My period.
So I went back to the class, more talking, this lasted for 2 hours. We ended up leaving at 7:00. By then my stomach, my back, were killing me, and I was tired as hell,
not to mention omg get me the FUCK OUT OF HERE.
Then it was just Dan, Cory and Me, There is this girl Carol that.. im not too fond of at the moment..
because shes all happy and go lucky around Dan.
Shes a nice girl, but I don't exactly... trust her.
She left fortunately unlike last week where she went out with them...
But anyway it was Dan Cory and me and we all decided to go to Barnes and Noble, Naturally.
On the way there I don't know if it was just all the pain I was feeling in my body, being tired or what, but I just felt really sad, for no reason whatsoever!
Seriously, I felt so messed up! So when they got out of the car, I said I just need a minute, and they went in, and I cried, for a good ..15 minutes maybe?
Again, for just no reason at all! I was wearing a full dress, and jeans so I took my jeans off because the water bloat and the jeans being tight just wasn't working for me.
I open my purse and guess what, my antibacterial gel decided to BURST in my purse, so yeah me carrying Radio shack in my purse.
My ipod, my camera, and my DS.
luckily none were ruined they are all in cases except my DS but there was a cartridge in my DS so nothing got inside thank god.
But I had to let it dry.
Dan came out and knocked on my window and I let him in.
He said whats wrong? and lol I had no idea what to tell him.
I just said I don't know!
He said its probably your period.
We just talked for a little bit and I decided to go in.
I got a couple of magazines and books, some comics.
In the comics section some guy who was looking in the next aisle, got a little.. too close to me when I was in the comic section.
So close that I just had to walk away before I was finished.
I came back to our table Dan ordered a scone and Toasted Marshmellow Hot chocolate for us.
Which I had some of each and I can't tell you, how much better I felt.
I think I just needed something warm, I felt every ache and pain disappear and the rest of the night was ok =).
Though these last couple of nights I havn't been able to sleep, I end up sleeping during the day, but having to wake up short because I have class this afternoon blah.
Like my parents this morning, I swear, if you had sound proof glass I still think you would be able to hear them. I put a pillow over my ears, I can't hear what they are saying, but I can still hear them talking.
So my mom comes in, WHY YOU COUGHING SO MUCH, HERE CHANGE YOUR SHEETS, YOU'VE HAD THESE FOR AWHILE. -_-.
I wasn't sleeping anyway! or trying!
My hormones are through the roof. Seriously.
Oh yeah and im going to Boston October 27th, with the foreign language club.
They are going to the Fogg Museum in Boston, some art museum.
THEY ARE. But Dan and I are going to travel the city baby! ^_^!
We did last year too. It was mondo amounts of fun.
I can't wait to do it again! Only $10 too, not bad.
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There was a fire in my next door neighbors house last night.
and I can't believe it but, I SLEPT RIGHT THROUGH IT!!
My mom said there were sirens, 105353 cars, everyone was outside watching and I MISSED IT! GRRR
Even News Channel 12 came damn it.
I guess the fire started in the basement.. there was smoke everywhere.
There are still people outside right now, people in suits,
and a couple fire fighters..
I knew something would happen over there, every night I come home usually around 11:00 and there are 5 cars outside that house, with a bunch of teenagers outside just hanging out.
They were probably smoking or doing drugs or something..
Our house is fine it didn't even touch us.
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[01 Oct 2007|12:35pm] |
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I was going to update this morning but I ended up going back to bed so I guess now is as good a time as any other.
Been busy, mostly studying, I have a test to take almost every class now.
Between that and hanging out with Dan takes up most of my time.
Not much has changed, we're still going strong.
1 year and 5 months now ^_^. It seems to be getting better every minute I spend with him.
Yesterday we went to the Flea Market I ended up getting just an Ipod leather case for $2.00, went to the mall for awhile just to have a walk around and do something different, went to CVS to get my pictures developed, went to his sisters house then went to Wal-Mart just to have a look around.
It's kind of funny because we were just walking together down the aisles and this lady came up to him and asked if he could help her with these water jugs because he has long arms and she couldn't get them down herself =)
It's a good thing we went there even if it was just to look around ^_^.
He's been busy with school, a lot of his work consists of essays, which he has the most tough time with.
Thats actually my forte, but unfortunately I cant help him because a lot of his essays are on books or specific topics.
I really wish I could take the weight off him sometimes. While at the same time it makes me really greatful im not in school anymore.
I love him so much, and everytime I'm with him is just another reminder of how much I do, especially when we go out and its just us. I just feel really.. good.
On school topics..
The CNA classes I don't know I find health easier for me to learn than anything, granted I totally failed Anatomy, but this class is actually understandable, and im giving it my all to make it through it.
Right now we are in the Gastrointestinal unit last class we learned about enemas, colostomy bags, catheters... *shudders*
All the stuff im going to have to do eventually its really.. gross but I guess its something im going to have to get used to.
Last class it was kind of funny and sad,
one of the residents at the home peed on the floor in our classroom, and one of the girls not ..thinking anything of it, put her books on the floor. She ended up going home with a new book by the end of the class.
The resident I guess had alzheimers and he couldn't ..remember where the bathroom was. Poor guy.
My snail I was trying to pull one of the snails off the other and I ended up dropping them. The male snail was fine but the females shell shattered in front.
Shes ok though because it wasn't a part of the shell that needed repair, it grows back very quickly and already is starting to grow back. My fish too nipped off her tentacles but those are growing back so .. im so thankful. I've kind of grown attached to her, shes so active and cute ^_^.
Ok I need to get back to studying I have 4 chapters to study before I go take my test!
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Oui me.
Life is sweet, I just woke up about 5 minutes ago lol.
This is the latest I think I've ever slept..
I must of had 6 different dreams last night
They were all so random. But im not gonna go into detail about them.
Dreams are never that interesting to other people, unless its about them.
I've been doing pretty good in my class.
I got a 98 on my first test and my last test I got an 89.
It feels so good to get decent grades for once, it doesn't make me feel, completely worthless.
My teacher was feeling like crap yesterday, so basically we did the lab, and went home.
Well I ended up going to Barnes and Noble to meet up with Dan, his friend Cory was there so we ended up hanging out there together.
At first it felt.. ughh but after it turned out to be a lot of fun.
Except when their together they can be really loud, I think they were the loudest ones in the cafe.
I got an application so im probably going to finish it and bring it in tomorrow.
Barnes and Noble closes around 10 now, that really sucks =(.
So we ended up going to Taco Bell for dinner.
Again they were the loudest people in the whole place.
But I don't mind they are lots of fun together so long as they wernt boring. That and they make me laugh =) so its all good.
Im so glad I got a lively snail. She moves around all the time.
I can definetely say shes a she. Why?
My other snail is definetely a boy.
Yeah.
I caught my mystery snail stuck on my apple snail.
Luckily I found them and pulled them apart.
I don't have room for other snails im sorry!
It's ok because they lay their eggs above water, so if I spot any,
all I need to do is take them down.
I hate to do it, but I can't deal with any more fish or snails right now. I think I have plenty.
I remember my whole mice colony once I got a boy and a girl.
Im not going through that again.
Thats pretty much it, I have another test today, so im going to go study..
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[24 Sep 2007|10:25am] |
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Something is up with my body and I'm not ..understanding what it is completely.
My bowel movements have been completely off, diareah (spelt wrong whatever)
One day the next im regular.
Yesterday I was almost passed out, I felt so weak, even when I ate I felt..so light headed.
But I took a nap and that went away quickly.
I just know my body is trying to tell me something is wrong, but I can't figure out what it is.
Today I feel ok, so im not too worried about it.
I have school tonight but its a Lab for Infection Control, Basically I have to wash my hands for 15 seconds put on a gown take it off a certain way and Im done.
Then Im going to go see Dan for awhile. I hope I get out early enough, we went for a walk yesterday, it was so nice, the only issue being mosquitos. bleh. Maybe I should bring some off Just incase.
Yesterday I was coming home from his house and I saw a car come down in the other lane,
The front was completely totalled. Like it had just happened. Completely smashed in.
This guy was DRIVING this car. It must have been a hit and run. I wanted to follow to see what was going to happen but I figured it'd probably be awhile before he stopped there were 5 other cars behind him lol.
I went to Walmart last night at like 10:30.. it was nice and quiet, its so strange a store as big as that being so quiet, with the exception of the people stocking stuff.
I ended up buying an apple snail, hopefully as a friend to my mystery snail..
It looks like this. This is a picture off google btw.
He's a really lively guy lol. Im concerned for my mystery snail though, he seems to be outgrowing his shell. He can't close it all the way. Snails arnt like Hermit crabs, they can't just crawl out and crawl into another shell, they are born into the shell they have.
They are attached to it, and the calcium they consume is suppose to help the shell grow with them.
I've been trying to find more info but I can't seem to find anything on it.
I'll just have to keep looking.
I'm so glad I got my Koi fish when I did, last night when I went to look at the fish, the Koi's they had at Wal mart looked just not good. Some of them were discolored others were really lethargic. They just didn't look healthy.
I wish 'Across The Universe' was playing here!! I've been wanting to see that since I heard of it. It's a Beatles musical in the theatre. I'm a huge fan of the beatles.
So of course its not playing here -_-, It's playing in Massachusetts at a Hoyts theatre.
Unfortunately money isn't a luxury and I only have tickets for the Showcase Cinemas.
Dan wants to see it because Bono is playing some sort of..teacher in it?
Anything with Bono and U2 in it, hes all over it.
So I did what I do best, I downloaded it =D.
God, I've been thinking to myself, maybe I do need a job, I hate being without money and I'd like to save some up.
I went to Barnes and Noble yesterday and there's a sign up saying they are hiring in the Cafe so I thought I'd try there. I just hope they'll take someone who can only work Wed, Fri, Sat and Sun. Then maybe the West Warwick Library.
I want an easy job, so I can have time to study, I just really want to get through this class. It's my most important priority right now.
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You know what?
I woke up this morning and looked in the mirror, I took a good look at myself.
Something looks, different about me and I can't put my finger on it.
It's not a bad thing, but I can't tell if its a good thing either, I just feel like,
I look different?
I'm definetely not taller I havn't grown since Middle School.
I don't know what it is.. hm.
God I had the best time at CNA classes last night.
The beginning was the usual review bleh, kind of boring.
But at the end of the class, we had an Aging Lab.
This was a blast.
She came into the room with these rubber gloves, tape and some cotton balls.
We had to tape the cotton balls onto the tips of the gloves.
Then she gave us these ear plugs that we had to stick in our ears with the gloves on.
Imagine cotton balls covering the tips of your fingers and trying to stick those ear plugs in your ears. NOT EASY.
Then she came in with these glasses covered in vaseline on the lenses, so we couldn't see.
All I had to do was take off mine and I was blind lol.
She gave us these packages of food next that we had to open with the gloves on.
I got some crackers and butter.
She put the tv on BLASTING loud.
She then put some Granola in our shoes, and told us to put them on.
LOL, Then was probably the craziest thing.
We had a partner so one of us had to put an extra large DIAPER on.
Guess who got one. ME!!
So my partner and struggled to put that diaper on blinded and all.
Then I had to put on a gown.
We took either a walker, a cane or a wheelchair, and we had to walk down the hallway.
DRESSED LIKE THAT. LMAO. It was SOOOO much fun though.
I havn't felt like that in eons.
But unfortunately it wasn't all great that day,
I was the witness to a mental abuse too. A real one.
By accident of course. Like always. Everything happens to me by accident.
I was walking back from my car during the break..
When I saw a CNA scream at this old lady,
She said something to the extent of "You can't be in here, you need to be patient".
Now this girl was a serious bitch. She had an attitude and you could hear it in her voice.
Then she SLAMS the door in the old ladys face.
This old lady was in a walker, she's elderly, How would I Feel if that was my mother?
I'd be pissed as hell.
As I was walking by her to get to my class, she knew I saw everything.
She said "She kicked me right out" she looked almost like she was going to cry, I felt so bad, but I didn't know what to say, to her so I just kind of nodded.
But I was definetely going to make sure someone knew about it.
The other girls in the room her everything, the girl was THAT loud.
I walked in the room with that OMG look on my face.
So when Michelle came in we told her everything.
I was the only eyewitness so I had to write down what I saw.
They shouldn't have people like that working there, I mean I know it must be frustrating at times.
But I know that lady she yelled at and shes already lonely, sometimes when we're in class, I always sit by the door, so I hear her, she cries for someone to help her, and I feel so bad.
When we walk by she'll say "Come In" But we can't because we arnt allowed contact with the residents till we pass the clinical exam.
Not to mention they're elderly, would you go home and yell at your grandma?
I mean thats what I think of lol
But yeah those are my excapades.
I'm gonna go take a shower, I have to pick up Dan at 1:30 from school, then we're heading to Barnes and Noble with his sister and his nephew..
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Man I feel awake, I feel asleep on my bed earlier.
Just took a shower.
I get out of class earlier today! Yes!
Not that I don't like the class, I do,
I'm just going to see my dear after and that makes me happy.
I wish we could go out to eat or bowling or something.
But all those things require money. Which I don't have right now.
I'm not getting a job right now so I can focus on my studies.
The last time I got a job and I had college I couldn't handle it,
I was stressed out because I had to work so many days, I had to study and I had barely any time to see Dan.
I was doing more work than actually enjoying myself. So I'm not doing that again.
Besides if everything works out with this CNA program I'll already have a job.
God I hope it works out. I'm scared mostly over the clinical stuff we have to do,
which is all hands on but I have faith in myself, I think I'll do ok.
Dan's almost graduated, he'll be transferring to RIC in god its either a year or 2 years.
But it might not even come down to that.
There is an english program that you can apply for if you have an associates degree,
**edit its actually bachelors** =p
that allows you to teach kids in Japan English.
Dan has a liberal arts with a concentration on foreign language. So it'd be good practice.
So if he decides to go, guess who gets to go with him!! ^_^.
The Program allows you to bring spouses.
I think its for a year.. or so. But god it would feel so good to get away.
Especially from here, I havn't been on a vacation in 2 years.
Being away from here for a year would be a godsend. I would get homesick but I still think
I'd be happier.
Not just that but imagine living in Japan. Thats the one place I've always wanted to visit, and I'd be living there for a year!
I can't wait I really hope he decides to go through with it.
I have to get ready for class.. but I'll update again sometime.
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Fuck. I might not be online for a few days.
I think im sick or im coming down with something.
My entire body aches.
my back, my arms. Tiger Balm is a god send right now.
Not to mention I'm having my period. So to add on to the torture.
But if I seem unresponsive for the next few days that might be why.
I hope I feel better tomorrow and this is just one of those
fly by one day things. =(.
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Class was great today.
well sorta.
Started out with taking pictures for Photo Id
Then we had to go over common prefixes and abbreviations
-emia
-a
abdomin
pan-
She must of gone over every single one, it was boring as hell.
I resorted to drawing pictures out of my book.
Which actually didn't come out half bad...
Kind of makes me want to back into drawing again.
I'm really good at it, except I get bored with it sometimes,
and my hand hurts after awhile.
Then we had dinner break, went back to class and we watched a movie.
Then she had us do this task, we had to explain on a piece of paper how to make a Peanut butter and jelly sandwich, so ok easy enough right?
haha. no.
What she did was she took everyones papers and she made one of the kids in the class read one.
She started to make the peanut butter sandwich the way he was reading from the paper. Except. It wasn't specific enough.
She started spreading the peanut butter with her hands lol, the jelly too onto the bread.
I guess the whole point of the task was to show how the mind of an elderly person especially one with dementia might think.
It was a good end to the class.
Monday I have class except its only till 6:30! She gave us the rest of the time off for 'Your Time' basically time we can have to do whatever we want to do. To take time for ourselves.
I'm not telling my mom that I have this time, then she'll want me to go home and blah blah... ^_^ I know what im gonna do.
She said we should keep a journal of our progree through CNAing.
I guess this is mine. So much easier than a written one.
I'm going to bed now, I have to get up early so I can go to class with my dear <3 =p.
Goodnight.
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Today has been quite a busy day.
Watched the VMAS online. Good show. Some good performances.
Britney was horrible but no surprise there.
Went to Dans at around 11:30ish hung around awhile.
Then brought him to the dentist
which I was there for emotional support.
He has a fear of the dentist.. =(
but he said I was just the thing he needed to be ok ^_^.
I have to head to the nursing home in about 10 min.
I have to buy scrubs in about 2 weeks from now.
I've made a decision in my life.
I'm going to try to be a PAC (Physicians Assistant)
It requires a program not schooling.
But its the closest thing to becoming a real doctor.
I wish I could download the differences between the two,
because im having trouble finding them.
All I know is a PAC diagnoses, perscribes meds, gives examinations and assists in surgery.
I've always wanted to be a doctor, so this is the closest thing I guess I can come to.
I'm gonna be at CCRI tomorrow im going to Dan's history class.
I was in his history class last summer, so we had the same teacher so he doesn't mind having me in the class.
So I'll be out all day tomorrow too.
ttyl!
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[12 Sep 2007|09:15am] |
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I went to my first CNA class yesterday.
It was fun sort of I have a great teacher who has a good sense of humor
But even 6 hours of that can get.... tiresome.
I've discovered something.
I can't take notes and listen at the same time.
Because if I do that, I'm not really hearing what shes saying, im too focused on writing it down, but not understanding it.
So I've decided not to take any notes but just listen.
Maybe I just learn better that way.
I got a Tuberculosis shot before I left class, everyone did I have to get another one next week.
I'm kind of nervous about it all, not so much the writing in quizzes I'm all set with that but the clinical.
The actual hands on. Because we're gonna have to take on 5 patients at one time.
That even seems overwhelming.
I've decided something else too.
I think I want to be a PA - Physicians Assistant.
It's like a doctor Jr. You take on a load that she can't handle all at once.
You can diagnose, hand out perscriptions, examinations etc.
I'm not sure if it requires schooling It probably does but I'll have to read up on it anyway.
I'm going to pick up Dan from school today at 2:00.
God I can't wait. It's been 3 days since I saw him, =(..
Due to school.
I might go in a little earlier and walk around, I really miss it there.
Just being in that environment.. *sigh* but soon. Hopefully when I start making some money.
My gourami fish is such a bully. Anyone who goes around him he runs around chasing them. What a bastard.
Everytime he does that an im there I usually tap on the glass to make it stop. Thank god my fish are fast.
My Kois have been poking at my snail too. Hes so cute.. I think their just curious though and mean no harm.
They don't do it often. I'm so glad I don't have to worry about my fish anymore, I used to worry that everytime I woke up,
one of them would be dead, but I've had these for weeks and only the one goldfish died, which I was disappointed about.
But I'd be more disappointed about losing one of my bigger fish since I've had them for awhile.
Gackt is awesome btw. If you havn't listened to him you should =p, even if you don't understand Japanese.
Not to mention hes a hottie. ;D. Sometimes.
Sometimes he looks like a woman.
This is my favorite video ever of him.
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[10 Sep 2007|07:45am] |
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I love cloudy days. I don't know why.
It's not that I feel down, I just feel..one with them.
I like sunny days but cloudy days I just feel..content.
I downloaded every Gackt song last night.
There was a torrent that had every album in one package.
He's such an amazing singer, I don't understand a word of what he's saying but, I love every bit of it,
his voice is just so smooth.
I need to start going to bed earlier at night,
I feel so tired when I wake up and I end up flopping back into bed again shortly after I wake up.
my life is going to be really busy from now on, not during the day mind you but at night, Mon Tue and Thur I have class.
Wed are preserved for Dan and I.
That leaves Fri, Sat and Sun free.
I'm kind of scared. I really need to pass this one. But im afraid of messing it up.
Im feeling a lot of pressure from my parents..
This isn't exactly my career of choice but my careers of choice are pretty much longshots. That will never happen.
Flight Attendant - im not tall enough
Doctor - Medical School. enough said.
Mortician - Again extremely difficult
Artist - This only works if people enjoy what they see.
Photographer - See above.
It depresses me that I never got to be truly what I wanted but its ok, im surviving and thats all that really matters.
Things could be worse.
I'm glad that I only have one stressful thing on my mind and that its not my personal life for once.
I've decided on something, every week im going to make sure I get out, and do something different.
This week Dan and I went to the beach and swam in the ocean.
Last week we went to Tiogue lake and the mall and played on our DS's the whole time.
Just to keep from getting bored and going insane.
I seem to feel happier when I get out instead of staying inside all the time. Maybe its something I should practice.
I think im going to flop back into bed now. I'll try to update as much as I can, though again I'm going to be more busy.
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[06 Sep 2007|08:32am] |
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I found my goldfish, he was under one of my castles that I totally didn't suspect he'd be under because I thought
it was impossible to be in there.
But turns out he was and when I found him he was dead =(.
At least I don't have to worry about him anymore.
Last night was so much fun!
I picked him up from school at around 12:10ish.
We went home, I had to get some things done before we could do anything, so he played Trauma Center on my Wii, in the mean time,
we watched some Simpsons episodes,
Then we went to Tiogue lake, swung on the swings, sat and talked for awhile, Took tons of pictures.
Dropped off my games at Hollywood video,
Went to the mall for awhile walked around, sat and talked about how we going to be saving our money, our jobs such,
Played our DS's in the food court and then we went to his house for awhile and I went home.
The pictures we took came out really good. For some reason whenever Dan and I take pictures they usually come out good on the first shot.
i took one I especially love now. =D. I came home and redid my myspace, new layout, songs, pictures, I havn't used it in awhile, so I figure I guess why not
My mom or dad left me $10 in my laptop, I wonder why...?
Tonight I go to the nursing home to order all my equipment for the CNA classes.
i'm kind of excited about these classes.. When I went to pick up Dan yesterday,
We went and looked around the school for a bit, and I realized how much I missed it and how much im going to miss it,
the people, the environment, just being in a 'real course' *sigh* I'll go back, when I can earn my own money.
I'm determined to.
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[05 Sep 2007|08:51am] |
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One of my goldfish is missing.
Literally. Missing.
He was there last night lying on the rocks, and now hes gone.
I can't find him anywhere. I looked in all the ornaments, I checked the filter, all around the tank,
He's M.I.A.
I called my mom and dad they havn't touched him.
I have a gourami and 2 Koi's.
But even a common goldfish is too big for them to eat,
So, where could he be!?
I might have to clean the tank tonight just to make sure he isn't under the rocks or something.
.So strange.
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